The other pre-Christmas party

6.12.13

The day started perfectly, I had to go to work and David wanted to give me a ride. When we got there, in one moment he was happy and the other he runs out of the door, being mad at me for something…
But other wise the day was great, we had good time with Collin. We talked about everything and just played around…

When my sift ended I sent text to David, cause I wanted to know if he is going to come with us to the party place at the same time.. He didn't answer.

When we finally did found the party place and said hello to everybody I saw David there sitting on the other side of the room. He just looked at me but didn't even say hi...

The whole evening went like that.. He really didn’t say anything to me.  First I thought  that he just had a bad day, that he didn’t want to talk to anybody, but then I noticed that he is talking to everybody else , especially to the new girls.

They are younger than me and they were very flirtatious towards David. And he didn’t mind.

After few hours I had enough, I really didn’t want to watch some “teens jumping around him and sitting on his lap. So I left…

 I didn’t say anything to anyone, just left. After a while, Collin started to call me and asking where I was. I didn’t want to talk to him, so I just hang up and sent him a text that I’m fine and that I’m  got home safe.

After that it took David two hours before he even noticed that I was gone. He sent me a text but didn’t even call…

After a while he got home, I was already in bed but didn’t sleep, he just came in to bed and I think he noticed that I was awake but still said nothing… 

But the next morning he was like nothing had happened, like it was just perfectly normal day.

 

This could not get any worst…

If we go back to yesterday’s madness, the day wasn’t over when I got out of work… I was still a little bit mad about the snapping and the way that David had treated me. I went home alone and made myself some food. David was still working and I didn’t have any idea when he was coming home.

Oh, I was so tired, I fell asleep on the couch and when I woke up, David wasn’t there or haven’t even called or sent me a message that he was coming home late.

I went  to bed. After one hour I woke up to some noises that was coming from the living room. I knew that David had come home, but I didn’t expect to hear the noises that I heard…

I sneaked out to the living room door and noticed that David was masturbating on the couch. I felt like I’m having an seizure, for some reason I felt that I couldn’t breath or move or do anything than just stand there and stare...

When I finally was capable to move I just turned and walked straight to bed. I just laid there, in the dark. 

This might sound weird, but somehow I felt that I’m not good enough for him and that I can’t satisfy him.

 And yes I know that it's perfectly normal... 

But then, this morning I heard something that makes me more suspicious, is that before coming home David left hour before at work at drove Carol home..

 And this was something that I heard from my other coworkers, David or Carol hasn’t mentioned it…